divorced kid

i should be writing for tomorrow, but instead i am still thinking about this piece that i woke up to on the radio yesterday morning. i heard it again on the ride home from the theater. it brought back a flood of emotions, some of which are still active and have been every day since my parents got divorced. mostly those feelings are just there, as they have been for years. i don't think about them, i don't dwell on them, but they are always buzzing in the back of my mind.

listening to this took me back to the immediacy of these emotions that i have not allowed myself to reconsider for years. revisiting them as a 26-year-old who has, by this time, been a child of divorce for half of my life is jarring in a way that i always hoped would pass. but things like that don't pass. the just mature and develop as you do.

sometimes my family reads my blog, and i hope this doesn't upset them or make them feel angry or guilty or sad. i don't want them to feel that way. i know that things happen and i know that no one ever planned for anything to turn out the way that it did. i am learning in my young adulthood that you can't really plan anything anyway, especially relationships. or really anything major in your life, i guess.

if you are a divorced kid yourself, or you just want to hear some good radio journalism, check out Divorced Kid by Sasha Aslanian (from American Public Media)

more when i feel like it.